My World and Welcome to It!

These are my thoughts and opinions about life in general. I also get daily prompts from DSP which inspire me to write. If I throw in some scrapbook pages I've done, photos I've taken, and stories about me, you will have an idea about my loony life!

Friday, June 09, 2006

Have I Accomplished My Dreams?

I guess I've led a simple focused life because I believe I've accomplished what I've always wanted to do and now I'm at the end of that process. All of my life I've wanted to be a teacher so I was so focused on becoming a teacher, that I think I missed out on some things. I kind of feel guilty when I hear others say what they are doing now is so different than what they started to be because that never was a problem for me. But when I look back on my life, I didn't realize that some of my friends went through hard times and I never knew it at the time. I hear now that they did and I am ashamed that I wasn't there for them when they needed someone. I wanted to become a teacher and my parents couldn't afford it so I had to work on my own to graduate from the most expensive private run university in my state. I sometimes worked 3 jobs at a time and studied in between that I had no time for anybody or anything else in my life. I had set a goal and I was determined to accomplish it no matter what because I felt like so many people were waiting for me to fail. I am now reaching the end of my career and truly feel fulfilled. By being chosen Teacher of the Year, I feel I have accomplished what I had set out to do all of my life. I'm proud of all that I've done and feel that I've made a difference in many student's lives but I truly regret the lack of sensitivity that I must have shown to reach this point. (Now I'm having trouble choosing a new career and answering the questions: "What do you want to be when you grow up?")

4 comments:

Stacey said...

When I look back, I regret I didn't have something to focus on. Congratulations on achieving what you set out to do!

glynis said...

How wonderful that you never wavered in following the dreams you had for yourself. I'm sure you are one of those teachers that your students will be remembering fondly when sharing their life stories---great post, my friend.

Zephanee said...

I can relate to being so focused on something that you don't realize what's happening to the people around you. When I was teaching, I was a work-a-holic. Every single extra moment was spent doing lesson plans, making stuff, or grading papers. I regret not learning how to stifle my obsessive nature.

Tink said...

The fact that you have never wavered from you chosen path says alot about the dedication you have in your life. I applaud you.