My World and Welcome to It!

These are my thoughts and opinions about life in general. I also get daily prompts from DSP which inspire me to write. If I throw in some scrapbook pages I've done, photos I've taken, and stories about me, you will have an idea about my loony life!

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Alignment

When asked, "Is the inner you aligned with the outer you?", it made me struggle how to answer this. I would love to say yes, because I think the perfect person should be able to say yes. But unfortunately, I'm very far from perfection. I think I portray an outer person who is outgoing, confident, funny, and talks easily with people. But the inner person in me knows that I'm shy, nervous, and very unsure of myself. I think I have a little inferiority complex in me too that I try not to show. I talk way too much, a lot of the time out of nervousness. Then I worry when I'm alone about, "Did I say too much? Did I sound like a nerd? Did I say stupid stuff?" etc. I feel like a fraud and have to give myself a lot of pep talks. I feel like I have to work at this on a daily basis and sometimes it wears me out. But I guess that is why God didn't make me perfect because life is not an easy thing and shouldn't be!

9 comments:

Lori said...

I think you are doing great! Nervous or not. I tend to talk to much out of nervousness too.

Bonnie said...

It takes a lot of courage to admit your faults so openly and publically and that alone proves you are more alligned with your inner self than you think!

Tink said...

Have to agree with Bonnie on this one. Only someone with confidence really could admit what they think their faults are.

glynis said...

Brutal honesty, Pat! *LOL* I think everyone thinks those things when it's quiet and they are alone with their thoughts...I know I do and I agree that maybe that's exactly why God made us that way, so we need Him!

Zephanee said...

Yes, I usually think the same things. I think that's totally normal. And, for the record, you strike me as a very confident and fun person!

Rusheika said...

I can completely relate... it's amazing that we often feel like we are alone in our struggles when so many others are experiencing the same. Thanks for your honesty!

Jane said...

So I'm not the only one who second-guesses herself! Mine is usually, "Did I prattle on like a twit?" :o)

faery-wings said...

OMG! That is exactly how I am too. Thank you for sharing that. it made me feel not so alone.
And ITA with bonnie as well.

heather said...

I can relate to a lot of what you said Pat. It's good to know other people feel the same way :) I always think your comments on blogs etc. sound so natural and from the heart - love how you can do that!!