Spring Growth

Spring always means change or growth. Any changes or growth going on in your life?

Spring is bringing about lots of changes for me and it is only the beginning. I'm preparing for my retirement as of June 6. This means I have to do lots of paperwork for my health insurance and finalizing "stuff". I am also going to have to begin packing and sorting and throwing out stuff that I've accumulated after 26 years of teaching. A lot of my stuff is so out of date that I don't know why I still have it. Do any of you remember those old mimeograph sheets (the blue stuff that smelled so good?). I have lots of those things and I can't even use them anymore.

I will also begin to teach my first college course so I've been spending a lot of time writing my syllabus, preparing powerpoint presentations, planning lessons, gathering material, and reading the textbook. When I slow down to think of what I'm doing I feel so overwhelmed, unworthy, and just plain scared to death!

So as you can tell, spring is a time of rebirth and growth for me. I feel like I've hit adolescence again. I want to grow up but I'm scared and want things to remain the same. Gee, doesn't that sound so familiar!