Forgiveness

My biggest problem is forgiving me. Sometimes I do things that are so dumb, and then I rehash it all day long. I end up calling myself all sorts of things and focusing so much on how dumb I was that I'm paralyzed from doing anything else productive. I know others see me as a perfectionist which can sometimes translate into a real witch but I don't mean to be. My need to have things just right sometimes make me seem like a nag, and then I reflect on how I must have come across and I feel terrible. I can't seem to let things go and move on sometimes. I know I need to just forgive myself and get on with life. I think I am more critical of myself than anyone. When I look back on times I was critical of others, I may have actually been looking at myself and feeling insecure. In my mind, I criticize my looks and my actions and my relationships. I even find it amazing sometimes that my husband hangs around and still loves me. I look at the past and think of other people that I need to ask for forgiveness and just don't have the courage for this. Maybe someday I'll get there.